The last little bit, I’ve been listening to audiobooks. I have read several books over the last few months. It’s been nice to get lost in my imagination and see the worlds others have created.
Most recently, I finished listening/reading Michelle Obama’s Becoming. It was a really good read. I enjoyed learning about her life and the snapshots of her time as First Lady. But, in the epilogue, two paragraphs stopped me in my tracks.
I came back to my physical book after getting home and read the words on the page to get the full impact.
On page 419 of the paperback, she says:
For me, becoming isn’t about arriving somewhereor achieving a certain aim. I see it insteadas forward motion, a means of evolving, a way to reach continuously toward a better self. The journey doesn’t end. I became a mother, but I still have a lot to learn from and give to my children. I became a wife, but I continue to adapt to be humbled by what it means to truly love and make a life with another person. I have become, by certain measures, a person of power, and yet there are moments still when I feel insecure or unheard.
It’s all a process, steps along a path. Becoming requires equal parts patience and rigor. Becoming is never giving up on the idea that there’s more growing to be done.
This morning, I went to a group coaching call with my new trainers at Filer Fitness. The topic was redefining failure. As I was listening, I realized that I redefine my failures every frigging day. I thought it was just part of my life. Living with cerebral palsy and in the midst of surgical recovery… redefining failure is part of life. Otherwise, it’s too easy to give in to the thoughts that rule on dark days. What I didn’t realize is that being able to see the other side of failure is a superpower.
When I found out I didn’t get the job… I, of course, touched base with my surgeon (I got a healthcare provider and work bestie in one) and told her. She reassured me that my perfect job is out there. My response surprised me. I said:
My perfect job is becoming an author/speaker. Healthcare is my passion. Helping people get the care they need… fills my cup. Getting my book finished and in print in the next couple of years is my side hustle.
There’s a theme in these thoughts. I am stepping into the person I want to BECOME. I’m taking the steps to live the life I absolutely deserve. Moving forward with the best team supporting my health, fitness, wealth, and dreams. I have a pretty spectacular life and I’m looking forward to seeing where the rest of 2026 takes me.
So here’s the plan for the next 3 months:
- Finish my book proposal and get the manuscript started (the rest of June)
- Complete the health referrals I asked for including:
- dental work
- colonoscopy
- eye appointment
- sleep study
- dietician
- occupational therapy
- Continue group therapy until completed or 1:1 therapy opens up
- Training for fitone race day
- Workout with intention and discipline to be stronger and build my best body
In exactly 3 months will be my follow up with the surgeon. I am looking forward to that visit. Mainly because I expect to be different physically (maybe not much), but progress will be evident by then.
Indomitable Bellatrix 
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