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2022 milestones

600 rides at Cyclebar. Being evicted from my local Cyclebar. 6-month Empowered You course.Personal training.Landing the job I wanted.Progression to my home clinics. Meeting a new friend.Doing well in my new job. Faith journey. 25 years of marriage to the love of my life.Finding my support system. Seeing my 3 boys be reunited with theirContinue reading “2022 milestones”

Teenagers Suck

Let me start by saying that I am fully aware that by saying yes to the journey of foster parenthood, I signed up for this. I chose this life and heartache. I am not questioning my decision in the larger, general sense. That said: whenever I think we are in a good place with myContinue reading “Teenagers Suck”

It’s Complicated

I joined the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints at the age of 11. I knew and recognized the gospel truths that I was taught early on. From the ages of 14 ‐ 18 being a member of the church saved my life in so many ways. It also gave me opportunities that IContinue reading “It’s Complicated”

Stepping through

In August when I was banned from Cyclebar, I was just beginning my training in my department at work. At the same time as the massive exodus of people that were in my Cyclebar community leaving my daily interactions, I was meeting new people on a daily basis. I told my mother early on thatContinue reading “Stepping through”

Recognition

Yesterday at lunch, I was ordering a meal in the cafeteria at work when a nurse in full scrubs and mask asked me if I remember her. I scanned her badge, and I did recognize her voice… but where/when/who she actually was/how I know her, nope… I had no frigging clue. She placed the when.Continue reading “Recognition”

Slow but steady

My daily life has consisted of work and home. My social life is all but gone since my daily excursions to Cyclebar have ended. I guessed correctly that the relationships that I made there would not survive my absence. Out of sight… out of mind. Oh well… I’ve suffered this loss before, I will again…Continue reading “Slow but steady”

Closed Doors, Open Windows

It’s been just about a month since I stopped working out, and I’m starting to feel the stress of it all. I am getting mental exercise thanks to work, and at home is always interesting with a teenager in the house. But, I need to move my body to balance the emotional and physical partsContinue reading “Closed Doors, Open Windows”

Delays, Teens, Depression

I purchased a bike, but the sale was incomplete and instead of receiving a bike, I received a refund. There are several other options and I hope one of them will work out sooner rather than later. My body hates me for the hard stop on my activity level. My muscle spasms are back withContinue reading “Delays, Teens, Depression”

Enduring through silence

I finally heard from the one that fell off the radar, but only long enough for her to tell me that she doesn’t want to hear from me again. I am both hurt and sad. Hurt because the conversations that she had with my husband were completely opposite of what she said to me. SadContinue reading “Enduring through silence”

Saying Goodbye

Over the last 14 months, I spent my free time at my local Cyclebar. Over 400+ rides in that time. Last Friday, the owner canceled my membership because of some fundamental disagreements. So, instead of riding and getting my sweat on… I have been in the grieving process. You can take the girl out ofContinue reading “Saying Goodbye”