Self Growth – Page 2 – Indomitable Bellatrix

Here but not

So, in October, I took my daily writing practice off line. I will be honing those pieces and perhaps sharing here, or maybe share in other forms. I have opened and closed this blank page a lot over the last few days. Lots of things going on amongst my inner monologue… not much of itContinue reading “Here but not”

How important is spirituality in your life? Spirituality is one of my mechanisms to cope with my trauma and emotional health. From my adolescence on, the church and my relationship with Christ and our Heavenly Father were my sanctuary. Through those two things, I found my mentors, opportunities, lifelong friends, and Truth. Since lockdown, goingContinue reading

Slowly but Surely

When the last kid left our home and as we began walking through our hell all those months. We decided on 2 things. First, as soon as we could we would leave this apartment… which will take at least one more year because life has a way of intervening in our efforts. Second, we wouldContinue reading “Slowly but Surely”

Fear

What is your biggest fear? My biggest fear is giving in to the person I was. If I were to drop all the progress that I’ve made and listen to the darkness that hovers in the background at all times. The way I combat that fear is to count my blessings from all the changes.Continue reading “Fear”

First commute

I stayed home on Monday and rested after having side effects that did not allow me adequate rest. So I tested the bike on a short ride. Tuesday, we went on a little longer ride to see how it handled hills. Yesterday… I got up early, excited to test the bike on the commute toContinue reading “First commute”

Quick Update and A Prompt

I didn’t find anything to write the last couple of days, and I didn’t want to force anything out. So, I took the time to reflect the last couple of days. Work is going well. I hate that we are expected to do more than we were previously but, it is benefiting patients so, it’sContinue reading “Quick Update and A Prompt”

Gift

It has been a long time since I’ve considered cerebral palsy as anything less than a gift. I advocate for myself for what I need to live my best life now. Knowing that one day I won’t have to… I’ll be able to do whatever I want. Sometimes, it’s a gift I do not want,Continue reading “Gift”

Self Care

How will you take care of yourself? What does your self-care kit look like? Taking care of myself for the rest of the year means making a crystal clear boundary between work and home life. I will not sacrifice the balance I find necessary to maintain my physical and mental health. It means taking responsibilityContinue reading “Self Care”

Day 1 of Mindful Intention

Setting my new habit last night. I completed my 10 things of gratitude. Instead of watching TV to fall asleep, I found a true crime podcast for sleep. It was interesting but soothing and I slept through the night without my screen being on. This morning, as I was getting ready for work and driving,Continue reading “Day 1 of Mindful Intention”

Sabbath Day

I stayed home from church with a bad allergy attack. On my mind, today was how I can draw closer to Christ in my life that isn’t a cliché answer. What came to my mind was being consistent. Consistent in my thoughts, words, and actions. What that looks like in the realm of my spiritualContinue reading “Sabbath Day”