It’s been just about a month since I stopped working out, and I’m starting to feel the stress of it all. I am getting mental exercise thanks to work, and at home is always interesting with a teenager in the house. But, I need to move my body to balance the emotional and physical partsContinue reading “Closed Doors, Open Windows”
Category Archives: Mental Health
Delays, Teens, Depression
I purchased a bike, but the sale was incomplete and instead of receiving a bike, I received a refund. There are several other options and I hope one of them will work out sooner rather than later. My body hates me for the hard stop on my activity level. My muscle spasms are back withContinue reading “Delays, Teens, Depression”
Learning Old Lessons
In 2014-2015 I was knee-deep in dealing with the consequences of my son’s actions. There were many days in the courthouse. During that time, I was also part of a homeschool community. The families in this group were people I trusted with my struggles while we kept learning the details. By the time we wereContinue reading “Learning Old Lessons”
Gratitude
The pendulum swings from side to side. It’s like a battle in my head between the extremely awesome things going on in my life for the past year and the really scary things that are bubbling just below the surface. The weird thing is that for the most part, the battle is won by theContinue reading “Gratitude”
Terrified
Life is good. Mentally, I’m in a good place. My husband and I are doing well. I am starting my career and am so happy about it. And, my health is good and improving. My life is going well and I’m terrified. In 9 days, I have to go back to the doctor and getContinue reading “Terrified”
Checking in
Midway through the final week of January. This month started and ended with a bang. Here are some of the things that started this month: 1. Empowered You 2022 with my Health Coach, Genevieve. 2. Getting started with my new Personal Trainer, Jenn3. Getting a 3rd placement. 4. Committing to my career development, by enrollingContinue reading “Checking in”
Archive: Reasons to Stay (April 2020)
I get depressed. Deep darkness, can’t see a way through the pain and don’t want to live anymore kind of depressed. No, I do not take medication for it. I tried that but they made me not recognize any part of my personality. So, I found other coping mechanisms. Writing, Service, Church, Family, Friends, ReadingContinue reading “Archive: Reasons to Stay (April 2020)”
Dear Evan Hansen (a reflection)
Some background: I’ve never seen the play. I have the soundtrack practically memorized. I’ve battled depression and suicidal thoughts in my youth. So, I knew that I was going into a potential landmine field of triggers by watching this movie. I saw the movie this afternoon with my husband. After my last experience watching aContinue reading “Dear Evan Hansen (a reflection)”
Heaven and Hell
I’ve been home from my trip to New York since September 6th. I’ve spent the week processing the events. This is how I describe my trip. Heaven: Seeing my little sister. It’s been 6 years since we were in the same room and over 20 years since we got to spend any real quality timeContinue reading “Heaven and Hell”
New York on My Mind
So, I’m heading back to New York for the first time in 6 years this week. I’m going because my grandfather is sick. There’s already drama brewing among family members. So, i’m packing my cycle shoes and fully intend on finding a cyclebar to sweat in. I might also explore a place(s) that I haven’tContinue reading “New York on My Mind”
Indomitable Bellatrix 