Sisters – Indomitable Bellatrix

Friends

This week, I had 2 members of the Relief Society presidency come to my home and visit with me. It was a good visit. They indirectly asked about my church attendance. And, I was honest. I have little patience for the social part of church. I don’t have many close relationships at church. I thinkContinue reading “Friends”

Holding Grudges

At this time last weekend, I was on a plane. I was going to Florida for the first time in seven (7) years to be with family. And, I knew that I was walking into a lion’s den. Being the only (to my knowledge) disabled person since birth in my family means I’m treated differently.Continue reading “Holding Grudges”

Off On Another Adventure

I was just getting into my routine. Last week was the last of my 10 hour shifts. Yesterday was the beginning of my new self designed schedule. I am so happy that I said what I wanted and actually got it. I have worked out for the last 2 days. And, I have plans forContinue reading “Off On Another Adventure”

Prompt Day

You get some great, amazingly fantastic news. What’s the first thing you do? When I get fantastic news, the first thing I do is call the people who I am closest to. In no particular order: The next thing is celebrate. Depending on the type of news, I celebrate with a good meal (that IContinue reading “Prompt Day”

I’m alive

I was at church today and I was going through the motions. It has been very difficult to compartmentalize all the feelings at church. I can’t share everything that’s going on with everybody at church. There’s too much to share and it’s not just our story to tell. Plus, I honestly don’t know who IContinue reading “I’m alive”

The Look

I was in the first position at work today. It was a nerve-wracking but absolutely incredible day. After work, I took my nervous energy to Cyclebar to ride it out. On the way out of the studio, I ran into one of my favorite instructors/unbiological sisters. She looked different with her glasses on and notContinue reading “The Look”

Training

For the last few months, I’ve been working out with a personal trainer. We just had our last session until school starts again… and I’m sitting here a day later in a profound state of gratitude to my trainer/friend/sister. My gains: strength on my weak side. more range of motion than I previously noticed. moreContinue reading “Training”

Before moving forward…

Before sharing my New Year’s journey… I first need to acknowledge the great blessing that our family received during the holidays. We’ve struggled the last little bit. We have all our essentials and we treat ourselves to various things, so it’s not something we talked about or really worried about. But, we were not reallyContinue reading “Before moving forward…”

Archive: Reasons to Stay (April 2020)

I get depressed. Deep darkness, can’t see a way through the pain and don’t want to live anymore kind of depressed. No, I do not take medication for it. I tried that but they made me not recognize any part of my personality. So, I found other coping mechanisms. Writing, Service, Church, Family, Friends, ReadingContinue reading “Archive: Reasons to Stay (April 2020)”

Heaven and Hell

I’ve been home from my trip to New York since September 6th. I’ve spent the week processing the events. This is how I describe my trip. Heaven: Seeing my little sister. It’s been 6 years since we were in the same room and over 20 years since we got to spend any real quality timeContinue reading “Heaven and Hell”