Gratitude

Verdict

After the arrest in July 2023, we learned that we were being charged with a felony. We were appointed attorneys due to the severity of the charges and went right to work trying to get the charged reduced/dismissed/mitigated. Ultimately, our efforts amounted to nothing. So, on July 22, 2024… our criminal trial started. A juryContinue reading “Verdict”

Long weekend

I worked three twelve-hour shifts at my clinics this week. I love the long shifts. After the day shift ends… I get to make up for lost study or reading time and enjoy both the sunrise and the sunset. Working long shifts means I get an extra day off this week. I spent day 1Continue reading “Long weekend”

Why?

I started a new book recently and just read: “Why did I stay and suffer? The door wasn’t even locked.” I read those sentences and in the cafeteria at work, scoffed and thought to myself. All I do is stay and suffer, why am I doing that? Life is not easy lately and there isContinue reading “Why?”

Light

My annual review went very well. I am still employed and I am on track to do all the things. And my work family continues to show up for me. I am blessed and extremely happy to know that these people care. The situation with our last placement is far from over. But, I refuseContinue reading “Light”

Endings…

This week our parenting journey came to an abrupt end to a long-term placement. What’s more? It’s extremely possible that our journey in the world of foster care and our hope for adoption is over. The day after we were blind-sided by this change I shared the following with a good friend: “Yep. I wasContinue reading “Endings…”

Slow but steady

My daily life has consisted of work and home. My social life is all but gone since my daily excursions to Cyclebar have ended. I guessed correctly that the relationships that I made there would not survive my absence. Out of sight… out of mind. Oh well… I’ve suffered this loss before, I will again…Continue reading “Slow but steady”

Enduring through silence

I finally heard from the one that fell off the radar, but only long enough for her to tell me that she doesn’t want to hear from me again. I am both hurt and sad. Hurt because the conversations that she had with my husband were completely opposite of what she said to me. SadContinue reading “Enduring through silence”

The Look

I was in the first position at work today. It was a nerve-wracking but absolutely incredible day. After work, I took my nervous energy to Cyclebar to ride it out. On the way out of the studio, I ran into one of my favorite instructors/unbiological sisters. She looked different with her glasses on and notContinue reading “The Look”

The pendulum swings from side to side. It’s like a battle in my head between the extremely awesome things going on in my life for the past year and the really scary things that are bubbling just below the surface. The weird thing is that for the most part, the battle is won by theContinue reading “Gratitude”

Terrified

Life is good. Mentally, I’m in a good place. My husband and I are doing well. I am starting my career and am so happy about it. And, my health is good and improving. My life is going well and I’m terrified. In 9 days, I have to go back to the doctor and getContinue reading “Terrified”