Not So Random Thoughts

I’m handling the insomnia better this year. I’m actually kind of surprised. I mean, recent surgery, feeling the loss of the patient/doctor connection that happens when you graduate from a certain level of care, relearning my body as the healing continues, returning to work, the shift that’s happening in my relationships… It’s a lot.

So, here are the steps I’ve taken that are working for me.

• Turn off the phone automatically at 9:00 pm. That’s now my curfew. Time to wash up and get myself into bed to read, write, or veg.
• I put my weighted blanket back on my bed. The weight of my blanket serves three purposes.
  • It eases the sore muscles
  • It calms my nervous system, and the spasms quiet down
  • It gives me a sense of safety, like nothing can come and hurt me
• Writing. Here, but also offline. I’m also using my creativity in some adult coloring books, models, and apps that require nothing but monotony.

I just had my annual review. My supervisor and I talked about a few things. “You are one of my go-to persons, especially in Data Entry. When you are having a good day, you elevate everyone around you. When you are having a bad day, you bring everyone down. What can we do to support you?” I was honest and told them that 2when I am physically in pain or hurt in other ways, it would be amazing if I could work remotely. That way, I can take the time to care for myself as well as my patients. I also said that I feel like I’m being passed over for positions and opportunities that I should be in the running for.

I purchased a compression tank top to wear as I return to my day-to-day. It’s not quite right, so my doctor put in a prescription for a custom prosthesis. I can’t wait for that appointment.

This weekend, we’re off on a quick road trip. Other than church, appointments, and visiting a friend in the hospital… I haven’t strayed far from home since well before surgery. This is going to be fun. Especially as we are going to see family that probably does not know about my recent surgery.