Process and Path

Since jumping into the opportunity to become a published author, I’ve been feeling some familiar reactions that are scary reminders.

My body is responding the same way to moving toward my goals as it did when I was in extreme stress and deep in despair.

I keep having to go through the reasons I’m doing this with my husband. I have to remind myself that I want this. Because the pull to stop everything and run away is so strong. My body doesn’t know the difference between excitement and despair.

I will definitely be using this space more as I absorb the knowledge from TBA and Luvvie. I listened to the first session live and again this morning. The second listening is to take notes and let the message I need most be received. I’m in for a very productive year as I lean into my creative process.

The other thing that has my body in reactive mode is that I’m stepping forward with growth opportunities at work. I have interviewed for promotions in my department. Firmly putting my foot in the ring to step into leadership and teaching opportunities.

I’ve also taken proactive steps in my health. The steps I’ve taken are positive, and I’m sure I’m making the right decisions. That confidence doesn’t take the nervousness and angst away.

I understand that this is part of my process. The path will lead me to the life I always dreamed about. I’m grateful that my husband is so supportive of the path I’m on. He is right by my side, making sure I follow through and continue to live by my personal motto: best effort only.

Now, I just have to remind myself to breathe and trust that those who are meant to be part of this journey will find me.