My daily life has consisted of work and home. My social life is all but gone since my daily excursions to Cyclebar have ended. I guessed correctly that the relationships that I made there would not survive my absence. Out of sight… out of mind. Oh well… I’ve suffered this loss before, I will again… and that is just the way of my life.
I strive to talk with those people that I miss the most on a regular basis. As my family changes and my professional life takes shape, my efforts have changed and it will be up to them to seek me out.
We have 2 teens in the house now. One planning her future education and figuring out her life, while the other is figuring out who they are and how to feel safe being at home with a family still willing to fight for them.
Along with the children at home. My son has been more diligent in his attempts to communicate with us. It makes my heart smile that he is trying. I keep a very healthy (read: large) boundary with me son. Yet, I can not help but hope for him to be the man I imagined him to be when I first saw him a decade ago.
I am passed my 90 day mark at work. I love my job. I look forward to work each day. I love playing a small part in the health of others and getting to be part of an organization that aligns with my mission and purpose in life so well. I am looking forward to how the next bit in my career unfolds.
Another bright spot from working, is getting to know people that I can be friends with. I have a hard time with that in life, these people have helped sustain me through the loss of community.
Today I bought my own traditional spin bike. So, even if I’m no longer an in person rider at a cycling studio in town… I can still have moments when my body meets my mind. And I am very much looking forward to doing just that.
Indomitable Bellatrix 