I finally heard from the one that fell off the radar, but only long enough for her to tell me that she doesn’t want to hear from me again. I am both hurt and sad. Hurt because the conversations that she had with my husband were completely opposite of what she said to me. Sad because she was someone I trusted with parts of my story and my weaknesses. That trust was misplaced and not only is that sad but heartbreaking.
I will weather the loss of this friend as well as the loss of my overall cyclebar community because I know three things.
- I am enough and worthy of all that I’m fighting for.
- Because I am who I am, I am stronger than everyone else. I’ve been through worse losses. This time I will not doubt myself or my ability.
- I have formed relationships that will endure far beyond that studio.
- BONUS: my passion for cycling isn’t going anywhere and I will continue to ride and feel free in both body and mind.
Indomitable Bellatrix 