Dear Evan Hansen (a reflection)

Some background: I’ve never seen the play. I have the soundtrack practically memorized. I’ve battled depression and suicidal thoughts in my youth. So, I knew that I was going into a potential landmine field of triggers by watching this movie.

I saw the movie this afternoon with my husband. After my last experience watching a movie, I knew better than to go to this movie alone.

I cried at multiple moments throughout the movie. I noticed several moments where I could recognize my old thinking patterns and was keenly reminded of the times when I was close to letting go.

One song I never heard before struck me.

The parts we can’t tell, we carry them well
But that doesn’t mean they’re not… heavy, heavy

The anonymous ones
Never let you see the weight they carry

And to know, to know we’re not alone
Is all we’re hoping for
I don’t wanna be anonymous anymore

“The Anonymous Ones” lyrics
Dear Evan Hansen Soundtrack

This song touched me… I was practically bawling as I listened and watched. There’s a difference between knowledge and belief. I know in an intellectual sense that I am not alone in my struggles. I can’t even begin to describe the process (yet) I had to go through to move from that very cerebral knowledge to a hardcore belief and tangible knowledge that I am not alone.

If you are struggling, please reach out. “You will be found” and…

“We Will Never Be Better Without You”

Ganel-Lyn,
https://youtu.be/2zY7c4G-BnI