Another Milestone

Last night, I rode my 250th ride at Cyclebar with my favorite cycle instructor. I purposely ride with her three times a week. Some would say I’m a glutton for punishment, because even “recovery” rides are intense and make you work until you want to blackout. But, I choose her classes because not only do I get the workout for my body, but she has the uncanny ability to tap into my soul and nourish it as well. (To be fair, every cyclestar does this in different ways.)

Yesterday as she gets to talking about my milestone she says: Beth, I know you’ve been on a journey and I think you’re still on it. And then we climbed a hard ass hill. As I’m pedaling my heart out, she’s directly in front of me, my husband is next to me, and I’m surrounded by my chosen family. I flashed through my journey thus far and caught a glimpse of what might be my immediate future. And I lost my breath… sat in the saddle and pedaled harder.

The last bit of my journey I’ve walked with this woman constantly reminding me that:

I’m seen.

I’m important.

I can do this.

I’m worth the effort I’m putting in.

Walls and Boundaries are not bad,

It’s not how you show up it’s THAT your show up that matters.

Pauses and resting is okay.

The universe knows how to take care of me, it’s okay to trust it.

She was there when others weren’t. More importantly, she still is.

251 down (I rode tonight too) many more to come.