Choose Joy

The kids’ case worker did a home visit yesterday. They got good news.

So, yesterday morning… I did a spinning class with my favorite instructor/friend. As I was hydrating… we chatted as per usual. I made a statement that “I was ready to go back to work. Also, is it sad that I’m hoping to be an empty nester soon. But, only long enough to actually finish orientation.” She gave me this knowing look and smiled. And then, we quickly changed the subject.

I love my kids, they are exactly what my heart needed as our first placement to remind me that foster or not… I am a mom and I’ve got a lot to teach and a lot more to learn. At the same time, I know that these kids are not meant to be mine forever. I’ve taught them all that I can at this point in their lives. And, I’m looking forward to their return home as much as they are. I forgot to mention that the transition home could happen as early as tomorrow. (Their good news)

My husband is also leaving town for Texas tomorrow, so I could be living the single life this week. It’s a bittersweet thing to have an empty house this way, but I am going to choose joy.