Motivation Through Movement

This was an event put on by Womeness Community just over a month ago that I attended. I’m at a point in my life where I’m actively trying to do things differently than I’ve done before, After the last event that I attended from Womeness… well, I found people I could not only learn from but grow with. I’m part of this.. even if all I ever do is support Genevieve by being at the events… it’s not something I’m willing to give up.

I was really excited for this event and I was looking forward to doing all the things and meeting all the people. And then, the day was here and something was different. I knew I was going to have a spiritual experience the minute I couldn’t decide what to wear. I finally decided to wear my braces in all my glory and just wear what felt comfortable.

I was crying at the first meditation, And, oh my goodness, I could not shut my mouth. I swear I word vomited all over the damn place. I had something to share in each of the presentations. I’m pretty sure I annoyed someone but there was no way to shut it down. I’d been yearning for a spiritual experience for months. And, this was it.

The main thing I took from this day of all the feels… actually a couple of things. First, I got to experience some of my favorite people outside of the cycle theater and I needed that. Second, I knew I needed to get going on this new blog, website, and social media. Third, I knew my life was going to drastically change.

Motivation Through Movement changed my life because I realized that in more ways than I can comprehend, I am not alone and that feels incredible.

So, just days before the event I was finishing up the onboarding at my dream job. I was set to start the week after. I had a bad reaction to my second dose of the COVID vaccine. The fatigue really hit me and caused some other things. A trip to the ER and literally going in circles 2 blocks from home meant that starting this job was just not possible at this point. Also, the trip to the ER meant that there was no way I was going to further risk my health by continuing to workout until I was back at my baseline. So I went from go… go… go… to hanging on to my sanity by a string. Thankfully, on the other end of the string is my tribe. Who have been making sure that I have absolutely all the support I could ever dream of.

And, within days of the trip to the ER, we got the call that we were approved for placements and to eventually adopt again. And, here I sit with 2 kids at home while their parents work on everything that they need to work on. And, almost 2 months later, I’ll be finishing up the follow ups from the ER visit and hopefully restart orientation and actually starting that dream job. And, this website is coming into the world and my life’s purpose and my vision for my life is becoming a reality.

That reality though, is going to take some work. And, I’m going to have to be stronger than everyone else thinks I am… including me. I hope I’m ready for it.