Today was the first time in over 7 years that Justin and I went to church with kids. To fill up a bench with just our family is one of my dreams and it happens so infrequently that today… I had to keep biting on my flavorless gum to remind myself that this is my new reality. God willing this placement will be the first of many. Until we meet our forever son/daughter.
After sacrament service was over, I took the kids to primary and young women. And then settled into our combined Sunday School lesson. The lesson was a keen reminder of just how strong my foundation in the gospel is because of my experiences and support system both at home with my birth family as well as with my chosen family at church.
There is another foster family in our ward and it was so awesome to introduce my kids to the mom and dad. It’s always nice to know that you’re not the only one in a small location, you know? The kids will understand that all families have their stuff and it’s okay that their mom needs our help for now. Plus, the knowing look of everything behind the eyes of the mom was a much needed reminder that others have walked where I walk and will understand the pain that will happen as these kids reunite with their family.
Picking the kids up from class and sending them home with Justin was amazing. It was so nice to come into the door and be greeted with their excited voices and that they cared that I was back.
Sunday is indeed a special day. Two of my cyclebar family came by today and delivered a truckload of things to help the kids get comfortable staying here and to bless the other kids that will be here in the future. Some of the items were brand new with the tags still on. My heart is full. I have to wonder what I did in order to be this richly blessed with the love and support of the community that I found.
Indomitable Bellatrix 